The Guilty and the wronged

I had had many issues with self-confidence in the past because of issues I had had with one of my adopted siblings. My parents adopted my two sisters when I was in 8th grade. One of my sisters was my age with the same name, that was just spelt differently. Last year my family went through an issue with a sister of the same age. She had begun a major habit of lying, accusing multiple people with life damaging lies. She was mentally and physically abusive towards my siblings an

Throughout my years in highschool I had received a decent amount of honors and recognition through my volunteerism and work throughout the school and outside of school. The school district I was in does not allow individual grade or GPA awards such as class ranks, valedictorian, honor roll, and so on. The district is very much all about inclusion and doesn’t believe in those kinds of awards and the ones given out are never just for one person. With that I made it my goal to f

At 15, I made myself believe I wasn’t enough. I used to tell myself that nobody would want me because I didn’t look like them. I refused to look at myself in the mirror because I was disgusted by what I saw. I would force myself to go days without eating and when I finally did I would be disappointed in myself. I was disappointed in myself for providing my body with one of its basic needs.  Then if my grades went up and down I’d hate myself even more, because if I can’t be pr